first love never die

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
 I wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might 
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here 
 But the comfort of you near is what I long for
When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same 
When I can't hear you,
  I know you still hear everyword I pray
 And I want you more than I want to live another day 
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful
All the folly of the past, though I know it is undoneI still feel the guilty one, still trying to make it right 
 So I whisper soft your name, let it roll around my tounge, 
knowing you're the only one who knows me 
You know me
Show me how I should live thisShow me where I should walk 
I count this world as loss to me 
You are all I wantYou are all I want

since a few days ago,i was listening a song,the title is Faithful by brooke fraser..

i almost crying out when i heard this song.

From the Lyrics by this song i feel The composer wanna tell to us what she feel when she is far away from The Creator..

when we are "being a sinner" maybe its too hard for us to meet Him.. its too hard for us to take a pray..
sometimes we will heard a little voice from our heart.. that voice always said

"you are a sinners, do you worth to call Him,Jesus? do you worth to be Loved by Him? do you worth to be his daughter/son? do you worth to go to the church?
in the right hand you looks like a good person in the church. but in the other hand you're doing a sin.

but the more you listen that voice,that's voice will intimidate you,day by day.. and you don't realize step by step you are far away from HIM.. more far away

but the one thing you must know..
the truth is, Jesus(Your Creator,Your God,Your Savior) never leave you..
it doesnt matter where we gone..
no matter how sin we are..
His LOVE never end. never fail...

the bible says
Come now, and let us reason together, says the Lord. Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red like crimson, they shall be like wool.
(isaiah 1 : 18)


honesty,i am far away from The Creator (i called Him Jesus)
i feel like don't know Him well,what He want from me.
but still i have learned to reach out just the same..
 maybe it will be a different atmosphere
sometimes i'm longing for the time when the first we met...
when our heart always beating together..
when i always find the reason to meet you..
when i always find the reason to cry,just because i realize only YOU the most of one i love..
when i always find the reason to say NO for SINS..

maybe i'm feel guilty..
maybe what i've ever made it's too hurting you..
but i want believe with the bible says.
there is a love there is a forgiveness..
and the Love is YOU..

i'll do anything i can do just because i wanna feel our first love's atmosphere...
againn..

^^

with Love


-Py-